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Monday, February 09, 2009 ( @ 2:54:00 PM ) i just realized the last blog post was dated to 3mths back! i'm getting better at this. hahha. oh wells. today woke up feeling funny. funny = quite down. but not that down. but still down. am still feeling that way. however it's hard to be down when the ppl ard are really happy. esp. when these ppl are those that u really care for and love. so i'm really happy for jean and her joyous day =) i'm at youth hub now. not supposed to be blogging but i needed to release it! my down-ness coz i got nobody to tell. God's with me though. =) 0 comments Wednesday, October 01, 2008 ( @ 2:21:00 AM ) All i had was a bad day. And even though i didnt feel like it, i declared that things will turn out good in Jesus name. Not sure if i believed it at that moment though. but He showed me. How much LOVE He stores. =) This Love, i can never fathom. ok first it was Jean who jio-ed me go jogging. and it did help! although i HATE sports. but it helped alot. released some frustrations and there. Jean's company always nv fails to comfort me. She's really sweet. super super nice and i really enjoy being around her. then it was jiancong. haha. i nv knew i would 'praise' him but but he was there when i was moody. was available to listen to me. And it's true. he's always available. never complains, even when most of our conversations revolve around me. haha! thanks =) then i came online. and one by one MORE Angels show up. Sound twinie!!! =) she's just always there. whenever i feel down. it's funny that she's always around when i feel this way. =) God coincidental huh! =) we shared, laughed and groaned. =) then there's SMELLIES. my nick was searching for them. voila. at the right timing they come. =) woots. and yeah as usual. they provide the similar sense of love and comfort. they didnt really have to know that i was feeling down. but rather we have this connection tt really helped! and and DIANA!! keke diana diana reads me like a book. we're so similar it's funny that we realized it almost the first week i stepped into FaithActs. keke. we had alot of sharing after her 'ok i need to sleep liao.' all i had to do is to stir up the woman in her. (hint: gossip) and there i have a lively kicking diana. but much beyond that, i'm grateful for her. really. =) fact that we're so alike and God created this common-ness between us! =DDD Diana, more to come! oh and not forgetting bao ge. eman jie jie. she said something really simple but yet hit me. don't let just one small insignificant bad day to ruin the many other good ones. =) i miss u!! come back from japan NOW!!!!!!! annnd we got twinie's bday to look forward to!! yes yes i miss her and she's busy but i still miss her like crazy =( yeap i'm glad. glad = tired but ecstatically happy. I love you daddy God. =) really i do. 0 comments Tuesday, September 30, 2008 ( @ 5:23:00 PM ) 0 comments Monday, September 29, 2008 ( @ 3:31:00 PM ) let me give you a brief intro about the Youth Hub. it's a youth drop in center where the youths around the area can drop in, play xbox, internet, pool for free (if they're member). So it's a safe place for them to hang out =) at the same time we get a chance to befriend them, and intervene at a personal level! =) okk. so today's quite quiet. meaning got kids but they're not so rowdy. it must be the weather. gg to rain already. so God set the melancholic feel for me to relax and rest=D keke. oh and during lunch we ate breadtalk to boost our energy. so that we can stay in for Wii! wii's damn fun!!! hahahah and today we emerged as champions!! HAH! revenge is sweet. and the fun part was the after winning. we were emailing the wii loop. and laughing at each other was really fun. den hansel started discussing tatics to playing. hahaha. had a good day =) Thank you daddy God =) 0 comments Thursday, September 25, 2008 ( @ 10:22:00 PM ) I have moved on to another stage of my life. A part of my life where i'm required to pay my own bills, pay this pay that. but in JESUS NAME, it'll be paid fully and i'll be abundantly blessed +p i've been working for 2mths? Around there lah~ at FaithActs, this youth agency. ummmm... started out feeling funny and out of place. happy to say that i have adapted and really enjoy work. =) Work's fun coz i've found direction and meaning! ah i am beginnning to sound like a bore. but but i really love being around people of God =) They're amazing =) and they make me feel very loved!!! and we played wii yesterday which proved i have very poor psychomotor skills. not poor lah. havent fully developed them yet =P hahaha. it was so super super fun =0) On the side note, me, neko, maggie had a debrief which we didnt complete. haha. coz we strayed away from the topic. and discussed about others. and i looked proudly at 3 of us. and my =) God have blessed me so much with their presence in my life. i've grown, cried, laughed, 'fought' with them 2. ah. the chemistry between the 3 of us. undeniable. =) annnndd i miss the smellies. =( they're awfully busy now. =( i miss csc. i miss csc when it was the top top priority in my life. (other than God, family) CSC have taught me and allowed me to grow. To what i am today. Thank You daddy God =) 0 comments Friday, May 02, 2008 ( @ 10:58:00 PM ) i got study okae. i think up to date got like 5 ppl ask me this.. "ehh your exams over le ah? how come i see ur facebook highscores everywhere" i got STUDY!!! just that when i study i also play lahh~~~ better than neko. he watch anime lorh! yupps and the smellies came to my house to spot check on me!!! hahahah it was really funny coz i wasn't at home. i love the smellies =DD 0 comments Tuesday, April 22, 2008 ( @ 10:44:00 PM ) today's flow of events.. 10am: meet LG 1050am: finish meeting 11am: 3 of us walked around millenia walk 1130am: ATE WARAKU! (neko's treat=)) 1pm: ate azuba's dessert. super stuffed. (neko's treat AGAIN!!! =D) 2pm: returned home.. slacked. 330pm: went NTUC 5pm: finished shopping. and realized that i chalked up grocery costs of $236.00!!! 530pm: returned home. mom was shocked at the amount of groceries i came back with. 630pm: had dinner. =) was deliciously cooked by my dear mom. 7pm: watched tv......... 9pm: multi-tasked while i opened my books. so if u get the drift.. i didnt study!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... man somebody slap me! 0 comments Sunday, April 20, 2008 ( @ 10:19:00 PM ) Expect expect great things to come. expect a great harvest. =) the qn. is, does God wants us poor or rich? obviously He wants us RICH. how can we be a blessing if we aren't? if we expect little from God, we will get little. today, God wants to bless us richly and abundantly. but many don't realize that. =( we limit wat God wants to give us. thank you Daddy God for the great harvest i'm expecting. =) 0 comments Saturday, April 19, 2008 ( @ 8:55:00 PM ) hahah dun like that lahs [ ` *wenbin* ` ] [11th] ~ ウェンビン *~ says: we will still be madding around [ ` *wenbin* ` ] [11th] ~ ウェンビン *~ says: dun sad lahs [ ` *wenbin* ` ] [11th] ~ ウェンビン *~ says: u sad i also sad aww. isn't she sweet?? =) thank you smellies =) i love smelly and best fren =) 0 comments ( @ 8:49:00 PM ) sighs. another ktv session. 3 consecutive weeks mans. i'm sick of it. BUT i love the company. i love you guys man. really. was looking at you all from a side just now.. and felt like crying mans. i'll miss you guys like MAD. i don't wanna graduate. =( 0 comments ( @ 8:47:00 PM ) so testing! 0 comments Wednesday, February 27, 2008 ( @ 11:26:00 PM ) so many things happening. great, wonderful things. but things have just begun.. it'll be an exciting journey down ahead. thank you. 0 comments Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ( @ 1:52:00 AM ) =) lovely week just went by. today was a lovely day too! went for csc day in the morning and for the first time i was earlier than copycat! haha. then i had to go for piano. hai.. piano. i dunno if its taking alot of my time. oh well~ exciting things to look forward to! =) many exciting things! and thank you all for the encouragements etc =) thank you all and you noe who u are. really very touched. and most of all, thank you daddy God =) oh we went to watch national treasure as a whole group of us! there was jiancong, copycat, me, bestfren, chantal, junhui, kevin and tiong. we unsuccessfully tried to put the three of them together. hai! hahaha. but it was fun being a spoiler of the show. i wasn't that bad lah. i only told cat and bestfren ABIT onlie. it was a fun dinner too =) i shared maggimee with chantal. haha. it's korean kimchi noodles and really yummy. veh spicy though! i am loving csc day 2008. but well, we're ending soon. it just flew past me. so quickly. i think i'll be the first one to cry. after tiong wei that is. HAHA! =) thank you daddy God. it's all ur works =) 0 comments Saturday, January 05, 2008 ( @ 2:44:00 AM ) smelly is getting married to me!!! hahah. okay lah. actually have been very busy with csc day stuffs. it's so going to be the best in a million years can. =) we rock! i love and am enjoying every minute in csc. as i look back, really thank God for the opportunity to be in csc. it's really amazing. gonna take huge steps in my life soon. oh maaaaan! 0 comments Wednesday, December 05, 2007 ( @ 12:43:00 AM ) ok after my last paper ytday, i went out with sock khim! we went to far east to eat.. quite yummy food! and went to PS to watch the tattooist! scary leh! we spent most of the time covering our eyes. HAHA. oh weelll... oh they checked our identification for this nc16 show! i'm sure it's sock khim can! after that went for dinner at fortune cuisine. that concluded day 1! day2: movies with DEBORAH! haha it was ffunnn. i was sleepy though. but i think enchanted is lovely. we came to a conclusion that, everybody needs a little injection of fairytale in their lives. don't you agree? =) finished csc day stuffs. phew. thanks copycat for being so patient. =D many things to accomplish this dec hols. 1) spend time with mummy 2) BAKING with deborah and xue and adeline! 3) practise my piano. music ministry here i come! 4) csc day stuffs! 5) double dating with hellokitty and dear daniel! haha. 6) movie watching with sock khim. 7) spending time with the best of SLK (only rahel and ME) alright. that's alot huhh. anyways, weddings make you wanna get married tooo. =( 0 comments Thursday, November 29, 2007 ( @ 9:59:00 PM ) the worst paper over today =D woots! cant wait for monday! woots! 0 comments Sunday, November 11, 2007 ( @ 11:22:00 PM ) a 2 year old boy laid his hands on me and said: "Jesus gives you alot, alot of wisdom. Amen!" amazing huh =) 0 comments Monday, November 05, 2007 ( @ 9:55:00 PM ) 0 comments ( @ 7:33:00 PM ) =D like it? love it? yay thanks =) i love it too! 0 comments ( @ 7:03:00 PM ) coz the mitsubishi colt very old le. about 5years old liao. so today we went to see cars today.. so can trade in the colt! yay my mom decided to purchase the suzuki swift! =D silver one though. coz white and black very easily dirty. red very ah lian! hahah. blue and yellow very funny colours. so it's still the silver one =D i'm quite happy coz it's small and i ever wanted one! next sem my sister going SEP so it's all mine! yay =) must remember daddy God for this =) i claimed it in Jesus name before! thank you daddy=) p.s: but i still want my volkswagen =( they dont sell volkswagen there =(( 0 comments Thursday, November 01, 2007 ( @ 11:21:00 PM ) but i blogged bcause i'm very touched. by ppl who bothered to ask me if i was ok. really really very touched. thank you to these love angels =) - rahel. st. u're always somewhere=) - carine jie jie. =) even when she's busy, she always care =) - lim low. shiqi darling. thanks many =) - shin ying. thanks shin =) for sharing! - sock sock aunty. i love you! - my big big cousin. thanks shundeng! though now nv rellie contact liao but u still care! - junhui. my best fren! haha. these are the lovely ppl who msn-ed me to ask if i was ok. it might not be much to you, but it means a whole lot to me. at this moment of time. thank you, dearies =) 0 comments Saturday, October 27, 2007 ( @ 11:13:00 PM ) like very very happy! heh we gave carine a surprise leh! rh and i went to crystal jade den bought a cake. then the cake is blackforest. very yummy. ok then we waited for her and yiwen daddy for HALF AND HOUR! hahah. and ppl were queuing outside for seats lah! oh and finally yiwen called me with the signal: Mother, i'm not coming home for dinner. HAHA! haha anyway she was so surprised that we celebrated for her! we're one week late btw. haha. anyways she means a whole lot to me =D she's always dere, giving me her da jie advice. aiya basically she's like my da jie jie. hehe. i love carine jie jie! =D and we had so much fun chatting/gossiping at crystal jade. food was good too! i think we had alot to talk about. haha. coz we so long nv meet up le!!! and they very nice. gave us a treat =) so nice hor!!!! ok after that we went to her hello kitty fair. alot of ppl ah. i dun like. but carine very amazed with the toys! hahaha. she's a huge fan i tell u. anyways we went down to the 'brands sale'. wah alot of things. also alot of ppl. like swarms of ppl lah. i could hardly move. but the two guys very nice, follow us patiently around. it's fun to pick out bargains with carine. only that we didnt buy anything! haha. ok but it's still very fun lor. oh we went to fashion lab and we got the best bargains of all!!! hehehe. i got a very very nice skirt for $9.60. CAN U BELIEVE IT?! carine got a very nice top for $14.40. gosh. waaaah so good hor! then we walk around to find papillio sandals for me. come to terms tat i cannot afford it. oh i mean renhong. haha. so i'm settling for bata. (it's not that bad ok) ok some frens that i wanna affirm and i love deeply and is always part of me! (not in order okay) 1) siaolangkeng. we are one ok. haha. unreplaceable. 2) sock khim. aiyo she's witty, innocent and everything i like =D 3) carine jie jie. just met her today and she's genuinely nice=D 4) yiwen daddy. i never put his name coz i put carine's lor. haha. but he's a very trustworthy, tan de lai and nice fatherly figure to me. HAHA! 5) Junhui!!! hahaha. best fren leh =D 6) Deborah. really grew up alot with her and xue. 7) ASL and oliva koh. i've not forgotten you guys alright! 8) shiyun and copycat. best pub team in gaw ever!! 9) dara, huien, guan. thanks for allowing me to grow so much with you guys! 10) jiancong. haha. =) many yrs of frenship=) 11) crystal and huiting. nv see u all for sooooooo long already! but missed deeply by me. ok i canont think le coz i very tired. haha. but if i have forgotten you, pls tag at my blog. =D anyways, to rh, you are amazing! nuff said. =D gotta sleep liao! coz tmr i serving in children's church. =D 0 comments Wednesday, October 17, 2007 ( @ 10:57:00 PM ) i LOVE it!!!! can't believe i found such a nice skin! i like it coz it tells me to rest despite the many many things i'm supposed to do! =) it makes me happy!!! friday is baking day with sock. i love her! today had rehearsal. so embarrassing. oh well. went to suntec with the party cell to buy lucky draw stuff. wah. the kids who win them really blessed. TAMAGOTCHI leh. 40 bucks leh. i don't even noe if it is worth so much. but kids still love it. i still cant get over the fact that some people are meant to be just a passing phase of your life i mean, how can that be possible. it happens. i dont like it. i dont like changes. 0 comments Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ( @ 10:26:00 PM ) went to WAAH twinie's bday party! she was really pretty! really happy to see her after so long. and thank you twinie for the sweet letter. i cried. embarrased! haha. i love her like maaad. haha. but i think we shd swap names with PEM. haha. they are the siao ones. we played rat-tat-tat(dunno if i spelled correctly) with them. hahah it was funny. but i had cramps. which made me look really bored and tired. twinie dearest, you've been really a bright spark in my life. and to your friends, and your family too. love you sooo much twinie! today i went for dinner with BaoGe and Rahel. hahha. was nice eating comfort food. steamboat ma. Rahel burnt her tongue eating her shabu shabu. BaoGe was high. haha. nothing really eventful really happened in the dinner. but it is always great to spend time with them! they're friends whom u can be real with. and that's what really matters. friends who really love you for who you are. they stick by me even when i act really like a fool. even when we do not see each other really often, i'm always a part of them. Thank you SLK! oh and also to sock. this sem had been really fun with her. it's only up till this sem that we really spend alot of time tog. haha taking 3 mods tog and going for gaw. really wanna thank her for being a part of my life! haha. so cheesy right. but i like being around her coz i can say anything i want, do anything i want, and i can be myself! she is also very genuine and gives me very honest advice. remembers me even when we're not in school. we can bake together. and pig out together. this friendship is really valuable to me! thank you sock! and finally, to deborah.. my sister in christ! got to know her alot better this semester. she's really amazing. thanks to her, i managed to get to know the cg better. and for impressing unto my heart to learn keyboard. so that i can serve God in the music ministry! thank you for your company and for many many things. for helping me to grow in the lord. for being real with me. thank you daddy God for this friendship!!! wah. this post was not intended. just felt in the flow, so decided to thank a few impt. ppl in my life. of course there are alot more lah! but i'm limited. so pardon me ok! just today i saw someone i've not met for a long time. i think it's just wierd. tt we were once really close? there was once when we shared many things. but things were just like a needed friendship(or shd i say acquaintance?) at that point of time. we didnt contact at all during the hols. for me, i felt that when i was needed then i would be one of her closest friend? when i wasn't, i didnt exist. dun get me wrong, it's not her fault. it takes two hands to clap. probably i had a part to play too. effort could be lacking from me. but for me to harp at this for so long? this must have meant something to me. alright. this post was meant to be positive!!!! today had a tutorial with sudha nair!! hahah she helped john ang. was fun and i love her!! oh well she only took for 2 hours. sobs. i'll miss her. ok. i got 4 essays and a MIDI to do. heeeelp. 0 comments Friday, October 05, 2007 ( @ 12:32:00 AM ) shall be out with sock and we'll go cityplaza to shop. so fun =) twinie i miss you! will be there for the you-know-what! hahah! rahel and eman jie jie i miss u too! 0 comments Saturday, September 29, 2007 ( @ 1:58:00 AM )  the group =)  the canners who try to imitate me. -.-  canners can to a toast!  gaw07 peeps =D  csc day people=D it was good fun =) 0 comments ( @ 12:48:00 AM ) i've been reading twinie wah's blog and i realise how much i've been missing her and the rest! =( this week has been fruitful and a waste at the same time! MONDAY went to deborah's house to bake chocolate molten cake. haha. it was really fun and i love her house can!!! it's pretty n big! and did i tell u? her grand piano looked tiny in her living room. sigggggh! anyways the cake turned out not bad =) i went for my first piano class and i love it!!! i pray/hope that i will be joining xuehui and deborah at music ministry sooN! at night i went for calvin's surprise party. he's xin fu to have tzehui as his gf =) it was a small csc gathering and had loads of fun at the Village. TUESDAY it's gawwww meeting and presents wrapping day. aiyo it was chaotic and the meeting was the longest ever. but all gawers07ers turned up! amazing hor! it was good fun after that with me cutting scotch-tape. haha. i love pubbers =D at night i really forgot where i went! i think i went home. haha. WEDNESDAY i think this was one of my slack days.. just slept and slept and slept. felt guilty for not touching my books. oh i think i went for dinner at sushi tei. hahah. gosh. my memory's failing me. went to work after that =( didnt go for csl. =((( THURSDAY morning i had a meeting and reccee visit to Woodlands care corner! i like my groupmates! there are dara, guan, shuling, karen and eileen! this coming wednesday we'll have activities for parents and children =) afternoon met sock and huiting. =) aiyo so long nv see huiting already! we ate at jack's place and it was really good catchup=) went abit of window shopping after that. i love them =) at night we celebrated our 1 year and 7 mths together! hahaha. we ate at the charcoal grill restaurant downstairs my house. it was not bad lah=) the weather suited our meal! haha. FRIDAY sigh. friday. friday. =( school's starting!!! nooooooooo. anyways i had lunch with my family at peaberry's. really expensive leh. but quite nice =) then i slept before going to marina. marina was fun! coz there was a gathering for RVPheads, SPheads. our vpia and vpsp's treat =D haha. it was fuuun! with alot of fototaking and the chopping of crabs etc. had alot of fun with them. i really dunno what i will do without csc people. =) i cant wait for csc day 08! Saturday which is today. i'll be going aerobics in the morning and then lunch with family! =D overall, i think i had a fuilfilling rest week. i have a test though. gotta get my head into the readings. sigh. 0 comments Sunday, September 16, 2007 ( @ 10:17:00 PM ) really really. Daddy God has touched me and every part of my life with his marvellous hands and presence and i'm frequently awed by Him! =) anyways, this is taken from rahel's blog. she's hilariously hilarious! 'i feel rather troubled i realize i have been unfair to ponning i dun mean to say you are bad and to say like 3 times i was decieving myself and trying to make myself turn my back against you when i think the world of you! now i realize i was born to pon! without ponning my life would... not be my life at all! it has been all about ponning! so yeap i have straightened my thoughts to think i was this close to losing my mind*shudder* we shall continue to walk hand in hand in the future! *beam*' HAHAHAHHAHAHH! doesnt it make u bowl over with laughter??!! that is my st for you. she's one amazing fren =) i love u st! ok to be fair, my twinie's funny too. this is from her blog.. 'yang was being mean on fri when we were waiting for our buses to come at the sch bus stop, so i said sth like "i hope all the bus 74s break down before they can get here, so that you'll nv get home" 20 mins after i got on my bus, he msged: "thx ah. 3 75s and 3 184s passed. still no 74. your curse really power." HAHA. so you see. nv be mean to ms wah =) muahahaha.' not very convincingly funny and it just shows that she's mean. but well, she can be funny too. hahaha. eman jie closed her blog so i couldnt have any chance of showing her hilariousness if she has any. anyway this entry seems totally pointless. but i just want to declare to the whole wide world that I LOVE SLK so much and i thank daddy God for these friends of mine who will NEVER quit on me. Thank you girls. 0 comments Wednesday, September 05, 2007 ( @ 12:43:00 AM ) ytdy night we went to macs to celebrate for ching's bday! it was good fun with super kiddish games. haha. i'm glad i didnt have a macs party. but the company was great lah =) i think he was pleasantly surprised! anyways i really think clubbing not good for girls. so don't go there kay? =) going to sleep liao. goodnites =) 0 comments Thursday, August 30, 2007 ( @ 10:30:00 PM ) There is a tale of an elderly woman in the church who served the Lord for years. Instead of seeking the help of others, she did most of the work herself. She was head of women's ministry, taught Sunday school, sung in the choir, was on the prayer team, and counseled the pastor on a regular basis. She was tired, worn out, and longed for heaven. Yet, because there was still so much work for her to do, she feared that she would never die. Eventually she did die. I guess God wanted His job back. Nevertheless, from the perspective of most, today's successful leaders, whether in the Christian world or secular, are much like this woman. Somewhere between her calling and service to God she took over, rushed ahead, and set her own agenda. It happens to the best of us. In our service to God we can easily slip into pursuing ministry instead of pursuing Jesus, and miss the purpose of our existence. The same is true in every facet of our lives. The pursuit of happiness, opportunity, or even being a good parent, can get in the way of simply pursuing Jesus. What are you pursuing? What is it that you really want? Is it a successful career that you covet? Is it to be a musician, a doctor, or to author a book? Maybe it's a spouse you're dreaming of, or the desire to be a mom that you're longing for. Whatever your dream is, it's a God-given dream. In addition to giving you the dream, God has also given you what it takes to make your dream come true. We don't arrive at our dreams by our own efforts, nor can we make them come true all by ourselves. We get there by pursuing God. I have found in my own life and ministry that when God reigns in my heart, blessings and opportunities pour down faster than I can make them happen myself. The best way to get where you're going is to surrender your dreams to God. We are always in a hurry. God never is. While He has given us the vision of what we are to become, it may not be a reality in us yet. We have to let God work in our lives until we are ready. The dream is not what needs shaping. It's us. God often prepares us for our dreams through adversity in our lives. Don't be discouraged if your dream seems unreachable. No matter what your circumstances are, God is at work shaping and preparing you for it. You and I may achieve some sort of success by our own pursuit, but it will never satisfy us like pursuing Jesus and waiting on Him to bring our dreams to pass. When God alone is our true treasure, reward, and prize; when He is all we long for, seek after, love and adore, then He gives us the desires of our hearts. Only then are we ready to fulfill our purpose. No other person or thing can satisfy us like Jesus or prepare us for our God-given dreams. What are you pursuing? Dear Lord, You know the dream I have tucked away in my heart. You know how I've longed for it to become a reality. I trust You today. I give You permission to work in my life preparing me for that dream. While You work, I will simply pursue You and be satisfied until my dream is a reality. In Jesus' Name, Amen. 0 comments Tuesday, August 28, 2007 ( @ 12:59:00 AM ) it's a ridiculous video of me! i got this from rahel!! 0 comments Monday, August 27, 2007 ( @ 12:30:00 PM ) i have been growing alot in the spirit recently. Praise God for everything! for favor, for love, for patience. Thank you daddy God! I have been loved and am still loved! I noe that everyday is prepared by God for me and i just need to rest in Him. =) however i'm still learning. to overcome the feelings of anger from the flesh. sometimes i feel taken for granted. i am just there to offer my words of sympathy. to be there when u have nobody else. that's all. i don't know why it matters to me even at this moment. i wish i could not care. even more, i wish that i had the heart of Jesus. the unconditional love that He has for us. anyways i was at children's church. when i went in for second service waiting room, the laughter, the life that was emitting and erupting in the room was so overwhelming. that feeling that i had at that moment was awesome. I thank God for showing me love and joy. The time serving at children's church is super rewarding! but i'm always biased towards the girls. heh *sheepish grin* anyways i kept wondering if i'll have a child as beautiful as them! ok, school has started. it has been great at school. heh coz got sock with me and she gets irritatingly cute. hahaha. but its great having her around =) and also dara, huien and guan! =) i heart you guys =) i'm determined to be hardworking ok =) this time, God participates in my studying =) heh. I LOVE JESUS!!!!! =) 0 comments Wednesday, August 01, 2007 ( @ 11:07:00 PM ) i had a very nice birthday! Thank you daddy God for this day =) 0 comments Thursday, July 26, 2007 ( @ 11:23:00 AM ) i was esp. touched at SLK who offered to meet me after csl last week. =) coffee bean was great coz i drank free milk. hahaha. thanks slk i love you guys to PIECES! i'm soooooooooooooooooo glad my report for placement is done man!! i stayed up the whole night to do and the next morning i had project C.A.N! oh yah i love canners. they are fun ppl to be with and laugh with. thanks copycat, zhenqin, derui etc etc. =) they always supply me with gossips. hahah. no lah. i love project C.A.N! =D that day i went back to FaithActs to return stuffs.. everything seemed the same, but feels different. =( oh well, i guess if you're not part of it, it'll just not be the same! quite sad leh. no lah not sad as in sad but sad in that way. you know what i mean right? anyway i feel FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! not free as in free but relaxed kind of free! =) 0 comments Wednesday, July 18, 2007 ( @ 10:07:00 AM ) sorry st for pangseh-ing you. i really want to go out with you one =( my eyes are swollen from all the crying. i wish i didn't or couldnt cry so easily. 0 comments Tuesday, July 10, 2007 ( @ 2:33:00 PM ) anyways just wanna say a short thank you to my fantastic 4. we call ourselves that coz we got nothing else to call ourselves man. was just thinking. some frens will be the passing kind of friends.. like when you move on, they move on kind of frens. other frens are just pure aquaintances. not really close. we even have semester frens. these frens are only the ones who contact you or find you only during school time. other times, pure strangers. it's a wierd relationship. but i've learned to let go of it. we have other frens who will never let go off you. those are the frens whom u can rely on. whenever you need them.. (thank you slk) i pray that we (faithacts placement students 2007) will remember our times. the times we cried together, laughed, fooled, slacked, worked our guts out. ThANK you! i've grown so much because of you all. Huien, Guan, Dara. Thank you =) we got to spend our $250 together. hahah. 0 comments Wednesday, July 04, 2007 ( @ 8:15:00 AM ) anyways i met up with deborah yesterday. had a great fellowship time with her. talked among many stuffs and i really had a great time! the restaurant chacha which we ate at ytdy was sooooo yummy. i love cheese. hahaha. den we went on to gelare. so fattening right. but thanks for sharing and reaffirming what i believe. New creation church rocks. i don't care what other people say about our sermons. it has changed me, and changed my life. it is quite sad to have churches blasting off other churches. oh well. i just pray that God will vindicate our Pastors! i'm tired. stressed. =( 0 comments Sunday, July 01, 2007 ( @ 11:14:00 PM ) too many things to do. Agm Report. Marketing Updates. Casework. i want to cry =( 0 comments Saturday, June 02, 2007 ( @ 2:51:00 PM ) 0 comments Monday, May 28, 2007 ( @ 9:44:00 PM ) anyways, i am really truly blessed in FaithActs. it truly is a place where i enjoy working with wonderful company of huien, dara and guanzhen. they're really sincere and supportive and no ounce of competitiveness! =) so glad so glad. even though we may be really drained..but we are always there for each other. these are the frens that are up for keeps =) Thank you Daddy God!!! And the staff of FaithActs are really really nice ppl. they are really genuine and sincere people to work with and they have really taught me alot. how to handle youths etc. it's really a great place to work at. i am seriously considering working there in the future next year! =) happiness. But i still have loads to learn. i cant wait for Zooventure! and the camp too! although i dun like camps but i noe i am going to learn so much from it. Thank you thank you thank you daddy God for putting me in this place. it's a very very nice healthy christian environment to grow from. =) so blessed! Anyways, i improved this semester! yay! praise God!!! i did well for sudha's module!!!! so happppieeeee. hahah. thankew daddy God =) i'm full of thanksgiving today because i noe daddy God loves me so much. 0 comments Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ( @ 12:35:00 AM ) and i don't think there's anyone out there who understands. 0 comments Tuesday, May 08, 2007 ( @ 8:38:00 PM ) i'm starting to love my placement mates sooo much. they're such a nice bunch of ppl, who loves God so much and they have been my strength of support in my walk with God. wow. thankew daddy God =) you brought me to where you knew would be best and where i would be so happy in! we started off the day encouraging each other by singing and fellowshipping. Dara played the guitar(and she can play the keyboard really well too) and we sang amazing love and a few other songs and prayed together. and i shared a part of the bible that i read and it was my first time! so exciting you know. hehe. and they were encouraging and we shared, and prayed. that's about the first hour and a half. we were given free and easy time actually. then after thanking God for all the blessings, we started work with our camp stuff. it's taking shape and i am crossing fingers that everything will fall into place! i think four of us work really well together. =) i know it's only the second day lah. we listen and give honest feedback to each other. it was really productive and i enjoy working with them. after that we had a briefing and i had a talk with the socialworker in charge about the zoo outing i'm in charge of. so fun !!! i'm gg to plan games and like an amazing race sort of thing around zoo. it's sooo fun and i'm so excited about it really. =) then we headed for lunch! one thing great about faithacts staff is that everybody goes out for lunch together. it is really fun talking and laughing with micheal and he's really a jovial and funny guy. hahah. he gave us tips on what car we should get and he has the same dream car as me! wah! so cool hor! and he used to volunteer at csl too! oh and we headed with brian to the youth hub. it's really fun coz we get to 'practise' on the xbox, pool and the table soccer. we realized the importance of knowing how to play them to be able to connect with the youths. haha we had so much fun playing metal slugs, street fighter and the table soccer is really fun. i only can defend. haha. and pool! aiyo. i am worse than the 12 yr old kid! but they taught me how to play too. i enjoyed myself really alot =) then we decided to go back to discussing our camp stuff. i got the nightwalk! so fun =) okok i'm really enjoying myself so much now =) ah zhor! you are right! =) more fun tmr =) 0 comments ( @ 12:23:00 AM ) 0 comments Monday, May 07, 2007 ( @ 11:24:00 PM ) tiring! but realized we had to plan the camp from scratch! wow. it's like planning half an ethelonter(this time 3 days) with only 4 of us, for 80 kids?! that's a humongous task! we'll have casework, groupwork, zoo outings, parenting workshops etc etc. gosh. so many things to accomplish within 10 weeks! on another hand, 10 weeks is too much for me to take =( i'm already so tired. i wonder how is sock sock doing!!! and there were many days i have to stay back. this saturday for extra timing.. =( so sad. but at least it ends at 4pm so i can take a cab down and fly to suntec for arrow ministy. can't wait!! love it when ppl are willing and excited to go with me! thanks crystal for taking the step to come along! =) mich! wanna come??? or anybody wanna come along? =) but it was something new to start off the day with prayers. it's new to me becoz i've not really joined cell or anything like that. so was teeny bit scared when it was my turn to pray out loud! now i noe why christian agencies want christians. =) it's going to be fun fellowshiping with my new placement mates. they're all really sweet and nice. oh, and we have a room and a cubicle to ourselves. we were planning to buy snacks and stack up the room with lots of goodies. haha. there's even a fridge for us! so nice! this placement isn't that bad at all. besides, i spent the afternoon playing xbox, table soccer and watching pool. it isnt that bad. haha. although i dun really enjoy these activities! but i noe i will when i noe how to play them! =) somebody teach me how to play soccer on xbox! oh yah, they have like 3 xbox in the centre. so cool right. not that i really appreciate it alot. i've been rambling on and on..i feel so overwhelmed. Lord, i lift my troubles, burdens to you. i got let me see. 1) placement 2) proj CAN 3) CSL 4) GAW 5) church =( gosh. how to handle? but nothing is impossible with God! although i'm feeling like really low now, God loves me so much and He'll give me quality free time. Thank you daddy God in advance!! this thursday, hathor outing. then also got CAN. but i only can go hathor coz it's at marina and i have to work. haha. junhui so sweet and nice. put outing at marina. sock u gg??? i have loads to share with u !! but you must feel real tired after your placement. i miss SIAOLANGKENG. wheeeeen will we meet? tmr? i'm free after 6. pls pls pls i gotta meet you guys. =( ok i'm finally done rambling. do not feel alot better after letting it out thou. in fact, i feel worse. God, pull me out of this quiiiiiiiiicksaaaand. =( 0 comments Saturday, May 05, 2007 ( @ 1:58:00 AM ) YAY I'M FREEEEE =) by HIS GRACE, Daddy God delivered me out of this!! =) today, or technically yesterday, i drove to school ALONE!!!! it felt good. so good. wahaha. but of course from my home to school is a really short distance. but it still felt good!!! my mom doesnt noe. she thought renhong would be with me all the way. heh. =p i was parking and did a few tries and there was this group of irritating guys in red car laughing at me! so smart park yourself lah! hrmph. anyways, after the LAST PAPER! i'm so happy noe, coz this ordeal is really over.it was tough. to end so late =( i dropped eman jie jie and rahel at NUH and it was good that they trusted me to drive them there. then rh and i went over to vivocity to find carine and yiwen! wahha. we went there to buy food for our long talked and awaited PICNIC! it's really cool to double date. hahah. it was fun and we drove to sentosa later on. i think the driving part was really fun! we took a few photos.. and that's about it. oh yah of course we ate lah. i was starving. we ate pizza and some japalang stuffs. it was fun, relaxing and the company was the greatest!!! =)  i took this photo! i'm good hor! wahha. this is carine and yiwen. they're really a cute and sweet couple =) then it got kinda boring when the other couple went to take a walk. rh and i almost fell asleep. hahah. but soon they came back and asked if we wanna go. we went mount faber!! it was fun driving there coz it was winded here and there and quite exciting. i felt like i was driving initial d in a super 4X backwards. it's really exhilarating to drive. i'm loving it! then we walked up. so sticky, sweaty but funny. haha.. the view was good thou. check this out..  this is carine and i. we look like sisters hor! i love her to bits! =) she's like my da jie really. nothing much happened later and i let rh take over the wheel. he's worse than me lor!! but cannot blame him coz he super long nv drive liao. but it was really scary when he accelerated so much when parking. he was wondering why he couldnt control! hahah. so cute right =) okay i'm done! just needa catch up with a few responsibilities that are bugging me. as well as to meet up with my frens! TWINIE!!!! and the others. haha. of course also got CRYSTAL! we need to meet up =) ok everybody, God BLESS YOU! =) gotta start preparing myself for placement. on monday leh! I NEED NEW CLOTHES. =) 0 comments Monday, April 30, 2007 ( @ 3:41:00 PM ) yesterday, i came back from church at 2pm. then i was supposed to study for my social work exam that is supposed to be on the next day's morning (today). then i started with a set of notes and after that, i couldnt focus anymore. then it dragged. and dragged. i became depressed that i started to break down. i tried doing past year papers but i couldnt do it! really, i couldnt answer the questions and i knew the questions would be similar. i really broke down in tears. i cried so hard you know. was sobbing. i had no idea what made me so fearful. i was so scared and tremble at the thought of my exam today. (no kidding) in my mind, i had demeaning thoughts like, if i had started revision earlier, i wouldnt be in this state. if i hadn't gone for church on saturday and on sunday, i would have more time to study. time at that time was a great factor and it was approaching evening already. so i just sat in front of the mess of my books and kept sobbing. i felt so helpless and lost. at the back of my mind, i knew God could help me. but how?? i didnt have an inkling of what i should do. i've never had such fear for my exam before, not for my uni exams. (coz i not taking honours ma, so i am not so particular about results) so i ended up crying for an hour plus. doing nothing and wasting my time. (it was 7 plus in the evening already. imagine my panic yet helpless state) i knew i needed help. i didnt noe who to call. i didnt think anybody could understand me. however i remembered my caregroup leader (charmaine) told me to msg her if anything on saturday. i msged her, telling her how lost i was feeling. she replied almost immediately, saying that she had sensed something's not right since saturday.. she gave me a call and prayed for me. she too shared her own experiences of how she had recieved God's UNEARNED and UNMERITED favour during her school time. she calmed me down, telling me to close my books and go listen to a sermon. I did exactly told. (note the time was 8 already) then, i searched for a sermon and took a sermon by Pastor Prince. He talked about God wanting to bless us in every way He could. not only 2fold, 3 fold, but 100 fold blessings! This means minimum effort but MAXIMUM blessings! All i need to do, is to know that I AM THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST! He redeems us from having to work, having to put in effort. All i have to do is to be SECURE, REST and the robe on me is FOREVER. (Of course, Pastor Prince does not mean that i do not need to study lah.) Hence Right believing leads to Right Living. This message is so APT! God loves me so muchh! i had the peace inside me and the trouble just vanished. Btw, the listening to sermon took me until 10 plus.i was so tired with all the crying and was having a headache by then. so after i had dinner and bathe it was 1130pm. so i just trusted in God and went to bed. Prayed in tongues and trusted in the Righteousness i have in God! and also, i had the faith that i would be granted endless, unmerited, undeserved favor. Woke up in the morning around 645am. that was not much time to revise for anything as the paper was 9am. so i prayed and spoke that i was the righteousness in God and thank God for this favor that He wishes to shower on me. I asked to show me what i should study. Hence i just turned to a part in the book and just read..and went for exam. Amazingly the parts that i read was so useful in my exam you know! EXACT PART! i dunno why i didnt read that part before and couldnt find it! however God led me to it. He did and GOD IS SO GOOD! i dunno what grade i will get but i know i am far far from failing the paper. it's so Awesome! God sent Charmaine to reveal the blindspots of God's love for me. it's so everlasting and God was faithful, despite me being faithless. He will always be. And there's more for me. Thank you daddy God. As for God, His way is perfect, the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him. For who is God besides the Lord? And who is the Rock except our God? Psalm 18:28-31. 0 comments Sunday, April 29, 2007 ( @ 4:13:00 PM ) there's always a new flavour in every bite! chocolate bits, caramel, graham crunches! mmmmmm!!!!!!! Thank you daddy God for all the wonderful delicacies in life! =D 0 comments ( @ 12:34:00 AM ) the people of the caregroup veeery nice! today charmaine was very sweet! kept making sure that i was comfortable. =) thankew=) and of course deborah who brought me in. i wouldnt dare to walk in myself! haha. but thanks daddy God for bringing all of them to me! it's really God's work, for me to take bible and christianity alone and also to allow me to choose the same timeslot as my caregroup ppl! that's how i got to know some of them and they are really nice ppl to hang around with. thanks to deborah =) i've asked crystal to join me at church next sunday and she says yes! so happy =) anybody else wanna join? hee =) Thank you Jesus for loving me! =) 0 comments Friday, April 27, 2007 ( @ 11:42:00 PM ) daddy, this driving license is for you. before you left, i remembered clearly, you said to me. you want to be a passenger of my car. here it is. i've done it. i miss you. 0 comments Thursday, April 26, 2007 ( @ 3:09:00 PM ) i am also wondering about the same thing as well! 0 comments ( @ 2:38:00 PM ) so the next step after passing my test, i want this!  believing God for this! Haha! ok i'm not greedy. this one also can! =)  drrrroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooools. 0 comments Thursday, April 19, 2007 ( @ 1:16:00 PM ) got back 2105 assignment yesterday. hmm i did rather badly in the skills assessment part. i guess i am still quite incompetent in terms of interviewing. but i noe i will improve with time and with my daddy God providing all the wisdom and love =) however i'm quite pissed with a certain somebody. can't say who. but i really felt that this person has not been totally honest and ethical with the actions that i've seen he/she is making. i've seen it once, yet i'm seeing it another time. both different actions for a same thing. he/she is probably not suitable in my opinion for whatever he/she is going to be. i'm angry. but i'm not supposed to be. because ppl make mistakes. Daddy God please sanctify me from all these feelings of unhappiness and anger towards this person. teach me how to love as you love us. ok i'm done. =) 0 comments Sunday, April 15, 2007 ( @ 7:12:00 PM ) He knows our needs, long before we know what we need. for those who are feeling empty, depressed. and really empty.. Look to Jesus for the peace that you have been looking for. because He has been waiting for you. right beside you. He loves you. Anyone can fail you, BUT Jesus Christ. anyways, i went to sizzlers buffet! so happy =)))))) hehe. i ate this and that and that. and it was all soooo yummy =) it's greeeaaaat! i love you daddy God! you taught me how to love others. Make me a blessing to people around me. =) 0 comments Tuesday, April 10, 2007 ( @ 4:42:00 PM ) yupp okay i've said my words =) 0 comments Friday, April 06, 2007 ( @ 10:53:00 PM ) i took pretty neoprints! let me share it with you..  I think this is okay okay only. hahah we chose this out of panic.  ohhh! i love this! and he added that GA ZUA underneath.  i like this too! we look happy!  my aiming is really bad...  i'myour strawberry jam!  Okay finally this! phew =) just wanna say you've been the bestest wonderfullest =) love u! on a smaller note, i think i don't know your true and real self. after reading your blog etc. i just find that you are a different person outside with other people, and with me. i'm not sure if that's the way things are..but i feel wierd knowing your the other side of you. your other side is not bad. just rather wild. i'm not sure if i know you afterall. that's probably why i get conflicting emotions in response to you. oh well. i guess it doesnt really matter. but it's just wierd. 0 comments Tuesday, March 27, 2007 ( @ 10:09:00 PM ) had a great great great busy busy busy week. with work kays. i'm really hardworking. *grins* i guess Daddy God has blessed and showered me with lots of love the past week. it had not been easy with all the deadlines coming up and tests. but i've managed to get past them! yay =) campus service on saturday was great great great! it was wonderful, strong and definitely annointing. enjoyed simply praising God =) and also a great big thankew to deborah and pearlyn who brought me there. oh and charmaine too =) i've met really really tremendously nice people in campus nus arts caregroup. Thank you daddy God who have really created so many chances to allow me to meet this group of wonderful ppl =) pearlyn is a really really sweet girl. hahah she's like a big sister always taking care of me! then deborah although she's younger than me, but she's definitely wiser than me. haha. she's really sweet and nice girl. and she helped me so much during the bible and christianity module! and esp. during the test that i didnt study. thanks! haha=) charmaine's really pretty! hmm kimseng is funnily alcoholic. haha. and chris is funny. hahah. really funny. and always funny. haha. erm. i forgot the other guy's name with the cap. haha. but i think u're quite humorous in your ways too. wahah really glad to noe you guys lah! =) i got a test, a project and an essay due this week. =( help. God please multiply my time by alot! =D thankew! and i need wisdom. lots of it. 0 comments Sunday, March 25, 2007 ( @ 12:48:00 AM ) today went church. the worship was powerful beyond God has always been faithful. enough said =) rahel, i cannot stand the love-hate relationship liao. haha. sometimes i feel like a hypocrite. =/ but i cannot get rid of the hate part sometimes. i'm still trying! =) i have a test that i've not touched. 8 pages essay that i've barely started. project to do. all due on monday. i'm not worried. and i should be. haha. but i know i can make it through. with Christ, everything is possible =) i'm having alot of smileys =) in this post. i'm feeling happy and peaceful inside me, despite all that i've not accomplished. Thank you daddy God! 0 comments Sunday, March 18, 2007 ( @ 2:30:00 AM ) 0 comments ( @ 2:27:00 AM ) wahaha. I love my daddy God! He has been so faithful even when i'm faithless. 0 comments |